The Day Before...

I never thought this week would come, for better or worse. It seemed like such a far-fetched concept when people would ask, "When are you leaving?" and I would reply, "September." But it's finally here, and if last night was a testament of how I will deal with this move on an emotional level, I may be in for a bumpy ride, at least for the first few days and weeks.

John Denver's "Leaving on a Jet Plane" has been playing in my head for about a month now, and at first it was an up tempo version, but now it's a bittersweet, slow song. Because though my bags may be packed, I'm not ready to go. I should have sung that last night rather than "Breakaway" by Kelly Clarkson. Alas, hindsight is 20/20. This isn't to say that I'm upset by any means about this amazing opportunity that has been given to me. I thank my lucky stars and God quite often for it. It's that I don't have a rolling stone mentality anymore. It took me about 5 years before I really felt comfortable with this habitat. I finally have made friendships and settled in. Now, instead of being uprooted by my family when we moved from Texas to England back in high school, I'm uprooting myself, and it feels the exact same way. The only difference this time, is that I'm not upset about going to England, which may have transfered my feelings on this matter only to magnify the fact that I don't want to leave everyone here. I know I'm being a silly little girl when I write this, but I don't want to be forgotten or swept under the rug along with the pasts of others. I'm confident, at least I hope, that this will not happen, but I can't help but have the thought creep into my head.

But enough with my sappy little soap box. I'm so so so very excited to share all of my adventures with you guys. I'm thrilled for us to share these things together and I simply cannot WAIT to hear all about your's while I'm away! We can have story time when I come back for the holidays and it's something that I eagerly await. Please know that I am only a Skype or facebook message away, so if ANY of you need ANYTHING, I'm here for you! Love you all!

My Skype name is: emily.caligiuri